Love This Lil Guy With All My Heart 🥹

BPD awareness month apparently.

the diagnosis felt damning at first, not gonna lie… but it’s just a part of who I am. it’s also been helpful, to have a key to help me understand why - why do I always feel so empty and hollow ; why does the simple idea of rejection and abandonment makes me spiral into frenzied panic ; why I can’t seem to love like normal people ; why does cutting red lines in my skin so often feels like the only solution ; why I always seem to see people as my best friends, all the while knowing I am not their best friend - and why that hurts so much. what was helpful was also to see that all of these feelings, they exist within everyone. they are part of the human experience. bpd is just that - human feelings and experiences, with the volume and intensity pushed to the maximum.

it’s painful. stigmatized, too. but in the end, it’s only human.

… it’s hard to be human. but even if it often doesn’t feel like it, I exist. we exist. we are not monsters. we are only human.

Little Holly ! 🔥

… Yeah. You don’t wanna mess with her.

Oughhhh its so incredibly hard not to sound like a broken record everytime i see your art! It is genuinely so charming and beautiful and gorgeous, I adore the way you color and just your whole style! It suits Artemis Fowl especially well, it has such a whimsical and fantastical feel to it that works so well with AF!!! All this to say I am so glad you are in this fandom keeping us fed.

🥹 Thank you so much, you are just the sweetest. I’ve been having a very rough past few days, and these lovely words give me the comfort I need right now 💜 Merci tout plein !!!

It’s 4:30AM and I can’t sleep, I’m too mad at the scores at figure skating US nationals, Amber should be in first è.é Anyhoo, here’s my darling Angeline 💜 I’m slowly getting the hang of this procreate thingy

... There's a Artemis Fowl: Guide to the World of Fairies guidebook ? 😮 WHAT

Again for the fanfiction ask thing, what is the Fragments about? :3

Fragments of Artemis Fowl is the fic I'm currently working on ! It's technically taking place right after Artemis Experiments Weird, but should be readable as a solo fic. The idea : Foaly is on a sick leave from the LEP and he's bored. So he decides to grab the (illegal) copies of Artemis, Butler, Juliet and the Fowl parents' memories he has saved from the mindwipe, and explore them to figure out how Artemis Fowl became, well, Artemis Fowl 😊 So it's a non-linear collection of one-shots exploring memories of Artemis' childhood, his parents' backstory, with Foaly's (and later Holly's) take and interpretation on the whole thing ! So far I have planned 90 chapters, crafted a timeline going back to the XIXth century, two excel docs of characters (the Fowl Manor isn't gonna staff itself ! and all the other prominent crime lords around the world !!), it's so much work but 👏 I'M 👏 HAVING 👏 A 👏 BLAST 👏 I had also made an entire doc with all the miscellaneous Fowl and fairies lore and anecdotes I could find while re-reading the books, but this one got lost in my last computer crash 🫠 So I have to remake it from scratch at some point. Anywoo, this one is still a long way to go before it can be published, but I literally started to think about this fic when I was a wee twelve-years-old baby so I'm not gonna give it up and I'm so proud to see how far it's come already 💜

when you grew up as a lonely uncool girl it will never stop haunting you by the way. you will meet a cool person at a bar or the train station or at a friend's party and you can wear your most stylish outfit and striking eye makeup and you will swear that they can see through all of the facade and see the lonely terribly insecure teenage girl you used to be who desperately wanted to connect and you will swear that they know that there is like an insurmountable gap between you. this will happen forever

Shuffle your on-repeat playlist, post 10 9 songs, tag 10 some people!

Thanks for the tag @valhelos ! I did rearrange the results a little bit so there was a little variety in this selection, otherwise it would have been only AURORA songs ^^" (yes I'm hyperfixated, how can you tell?). Also I only did nine songs because it's a better number :3 ... And yes half of them are still AURORA. Sue me.

Song links: link 1, link 2, link 3, link 4, link 5, link 6, link 7, link 8, link 9

If so inclined, y'all can give it a try : @kayden-i-guess @amaristheowlcat @unlucky-number-4 (I'm scared to tag people please don't be mad at me)

I need to build some type of skin 🦷

Hyperfixations collide once again o/ I don’t resonate with Aurora’s latest song as much as with Conflict of the Mind, but it still does make me think of Artemis - or at least of how I see Artemis. I’ve always felt like he used to be an hypersensitive, deeply empathic child, who was conditioned to think of emotions as weaknesses that absolutely must be concealed ; and who had to build himself an armor and become an adult so very soon. But even in the first book, every interaction he has with Angeline shows just how much he stills feels, even though he bottles everything up. And even though he’s a dork and can be very obtuse to how much he hurts people, I’m persuaded that you can’t have the borderline supernatural power he has to predict each and every one of his opponents moves during his schemes, without some very strong ability to truly put himself in their shoes and understand their psyches. Sure, you çan totally argue that he got there through study and logic, but I do like to think that he does have high emotional intelligence - he just doesn’t allow himself to use it a lot.

… whaddya think ?

Anyhoo, I actually don’t like this piece very much, I’m still struggling to find how I want my digital art style to look like, but oh well.

"If you use em dash in your works, it makes them look AI generated. No real human uses em dash."

Imaging thinking actual human writers are Not Real because they use... professional writing in their works.

Imagine thinking millions of people who have been using em dash way before AI becomes a thing are all robots.

REBLOG IF YOU'RE A HUMAN AND YOU USE EM DASH