Let Me Live In My Delusions - Blog Posts

good news

(based on a scene in chapter 70!)

Stress got so bad i turned into a fairy

happy bad batch day to one of my fave characters that’s alive & well & will make a surprise appearance🫶🏻 (feed my delusions please)

sorry, did you say,

“toxic, dangerous, sexy af and could probably kill me at any given moment if they wanted”?

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oh nooooo i’ve found another cute, awkwardly endearing, adorably nerdy smart funny man to obsess over!!! nurse, she’s out again!!!!!!

except this one really is my soulmate fr i’m manifesting it🕯️🤞🏼🪄🕯️🤞🏼🪄🕯️

When all you want is peace, but you keep on being tested and now all you think of are hard decisions to take like choosing to walk away or try harder.

Maybe, maybe just this once

We can allow ourselves a happy ending.

this year i’m gonna attend a college while being delusional and living my dark academia knowledge superiority classicist stunning university building beauty-craving soul fantasy

Finally blocked by everyone how has hurt me and I wanted to text back! I'm now free of any temptation

i tried to be good, am i no good?

I wish I was her, she has EVERYTHING I desire, she is gorgeous, she is nice and kind...

I'm going to k1ll that fcking twink with my bare hands

I love my philosophy class, it makes me feel smart

I need to connect with someone again, I swear I can be a good friend, I'm just too shy irl. I feel soo alone without someone how truly understands me

If you are my friend but you don't support my delusions, you are actually NOT my friend

“birds of a feather we should stick together”

i used to skip class in high school to go to concerts

and pinned the tickets on my bedroom door

(which is kind of stupid come to think of it now)

(if you don’t want your parents to find out somehow)

didn’t allow me to go and see placebo

went to muse without telling

2003

i was fifteen

badass 😂

a note my dad wrote in a book he gave me

jonathan franzen - freedom

ripped the page out

because i had to leave the book behind

somewhere in australia

a backpack ain’t a hogwards trunk 🫠

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“like a bird on a wire”

Conversation with friend(s) - recycled

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TAYLOR f*cking ALISON SWIFT

🤯🤯🤯🤯

WHAT ARE YOU DOING

i’m scared

this is starting to feel like a never ending fever dream

or more like a (girlfriend in) a coma

it’s serious i know

but please take us with you when you go

I feel so much better adding these to my drinks. May have more energy and can walk easier. But I feel better not amazing and cured. Why am I not cured? 🤨 I was told water and exercise is gonna cure me /sar

No but seriously I recommend these they’re great

CHECK THE DATE GUYS!!!! TODAY IS THE DAY!!!!

MY WALKER IS ARRIVING THE DAY BEFORE MY BIRTHDAY 🎂

Guys.. I was able to take a short walk and go up the stairs easier. I think I might be cured from chronic illness 🤭

If I like and reply to their Instagram stories enough, surely we’ll become friend. Right?

I fear when I look at photos of him on Pinterest my stomach literally does a flip

there's only 6 things I love. my family, Taylor swift, cats, gardening, baking, and MEN

how does one get over a summer love?

I miss the way you used to look at me. I spend most of my time living in memories and trying to remember what you sound like.

all I can do is stare at your name and hope that something will happen

All I want is you. Please don’t leave. Please don’t leave to be with her. I love you so much. Please leave her and be with me. Please please please please please I love you. You’re literally the male version of me we’d be so great together. Please I’d make you feel like a king every day. I love you please don’t leave. You’re so soft and warm and beautiful and you have the greatest smile and laugh and eyes and I love you so much. Please don’t leave.

I want a handler I want to be cared for I want to be able to relax and have less responsibility I want aftercare I want rules I want to whip my skin until I'm bruised and bleeding I want the pain to center me I want to be whispered to I want to be special I want to know how to reward myself as easily as I can punish -

Theo, Eloise, and Season 4

Okay, hear me out:

What if Theo comes back for season 4?

(Also, most of what I'm about to say hinges on the fact that I'm pretty confident season 4 is Benedict's season.)

The swing scene at the end of season 3 seemed to pretty blatantly set up Benedict and Eloise's arcs for season 4. Regarding Benedict, that scene seems to imply he'll be meeting Sophie next season, and regarding Eloise, she straight up says she wants to explore the world beyond Mayfair and Aubrey Hall.

Now, we know Eloise will be back in London for the masquerade ball, and we also know that the masquerade is where Benedict meets Sophie. Assuming season 4 is Benedict's season, the masquerade will need to happen earlier on in the season, so Eloise won't be spending too much time in Scotland.

So, if Eloise's season 4 arc revolves around exploring the world beyond her little bubble of high society, spending an episode or two in Scotland is not enough.

She needs to go back to Bloomsbury.

We already got a taste of this in season 2, but we primarily see Eloise visiting Theo at the printshop. Season 4 offers a perfect opportunity to see Eloise go beyond the printshop and attend more assemblies, and maybe even speak at one (in season 3, one of the debutantes did call Eloise a talented speaker). Hell, maybe she even runs into Theo at one of these assemblies.

Additionally, if season 4 revolves around Benophie, working class people need to be brought into the spotlight. Enter Theo Sharpe! Introducing Sophie already opens up the world of Bridgerton in a way we haven't seen before, but bringing back Theo can expand that world and show us a more political side, which we only got a glimpse of in season 2. Not to mention, a Theloise subplot during Benophie's season can provide really interesting commentary on women marrying above/below their station.

Puppy boy with a hot dog? Call that a dog eat dog world

Just chugged energy drinks with my buddies and it came out of my nose and then I couldn’t stop laugh and I almost threw up. Very fun. Haven’t breathed so good in years. 10/10 recommend.